For as far as I can remember, I was just attracted to other guys. I don't know, guys always caught my eyes and girls didn't. I never really thought anything of it until around the start of high school when you start to learn more about yourself all that fun stuff and I realised that I was attracted to guys, and there was a name for it.
I don't really distinctively going through a "facing the truth" phase, and I think it was easy for me to accept that I was different from the majority of people, however, I knew that gay was bad. Kids my age always used "gay" to describe things they didn't like, so I decided I shouldn't tell anyone about it. Some people used to question me about it and, of course, I couldn't tell anyone my secret!
I have semi come out of the closet. The first person that ever knew was my best friend at the time who was also a boy when we were around 12 (2012), and he didn't care and probably forgot within 5 minutes because it was irrelevant to our friendship, really. The second person I told was Kimi (from xat) around 2013 because he is also gay and I thought it would be good to speak to someone else about being gay and get advice from him. After Kimi, I didn't tell anyone until 3 years later around the start of July when I told Rida, Ryan and Karl in our group chat that we had on WhatsApp. That's what really started kicking things off and making me feel more comfortable. I came out to my best friend in real life the day after National Coming Out Day (jinx Brandon) when we were at McDonalds one day before college and I told her and we skipped college and discussed the ins and outs lol. I then told my second closest friend after she accused me of fancying my other friend (that's a girl) I just was like "oh no I'm gay". The relationships between the people I have told have not changed and it wasn't a big deal, they sort of knew already I guess. As this was leading up to the end of high school, our friendship group kind of broke up and I didn't get around to telling the others.
My siblings/parents... weird situation. Rida and I went to Glasgow Pride in 2015 and I told my brother that I was going to meet Rida (he sort of knows about xat and the idea of it, and knows Rida), but I told my parents that I was going somewhere else. When I left, it probably came up in conversation where I was and the stories clashed. When I came home my parents asked me why I was in Glasgow and I was like I was at a music festival (there was one at Pride) and they obviously they had researched events in Glasgow or something and my Dad asked me if I "was at the gay festival" and I just ignored him. They told my older sister (who has her own house, clearly I was the talk of the week) and she asked me as well but I told her I was there with my friend. I guess they know, but they don't really know at the same time.
I'm at an awkward stage where, if asked, I will admit to being gay, however I still have not told my family. As Brandon said, it's really really difficult to tell the people you care about the most and especially if you don't know how they are going to react. Even though I try to tell myself people won't care and nothing will change, I just can't bring myself to say the words.